Sarah Loftin

Age: 21

College: Tarrant County College and University of Texas at Arlington

Classification: Senior

Major: Clinical Psychology/Counseling Psychology

Hometown: Grand Prairie, Texas

Role in Glowing Heart: Assistant Director, Vocalist, Saxophonist, and Volunteer Coordinator

Contact: sarahl@glowingheart.org

 

This past year has been one full of tests and trials.  I became unemployed at the beginning of the summer and as I searched for a new job, with every interview which seemed to go very well, it was a door shut in my face because of a lack of consistent availability on weekends.  Being unemployed forced me to become financially dependent on my parents for the first time in 3 years which was extremely difficult for me because I had been independent for so long and I hate feeling like a burden to others.  I consistently had to ask for money to help pay for school, gas, or food and I hated it with a passion, even to a point where I stopped hanging out with friends because it would cost money in some way or another.  Soon after I became unemployed, my older sister and her family moved to Montana which made me feel pretty alone because she had been the one I could talk to about different things going on in my life when things got tough, and soon, things got tough.  Some things happened in my personal life which made me feel like I didn’t know where God was or if He was even present in my life and the situations happening.  I couldn’t see Him in anything that was going on, with being unemployed and having interviews that kept turning out to be “no’s”, all I saw was Him getting my hopes up and then slamming a door in my face.  I didn’t understand why He was doing this to me.

One day, Glowing Heart got a 26 passenger bus donated to us so that we would be able to travel all together instead of having to drive 2 vans everywhere.  Little did I know, but this bus was a part of God’s plan for showing Himself to me and to prove that He was indeed present in my life.  In order for us to use it, my dad had to renew his CDL so that he could legally drive the bus.  As he was renewing his CDL, he had to take a physical.  My dad went in expecting this to be a quick thing to get since he felt healthy, but in fact this physical informed us that he had major heart problems.  During the physical, the physician heard something that he shouldn’t have heard in a normal, healthy heart, which led to an EEG being performed and discovering that my dad had a heart valve that was not working correctly and that if they hadn’t caught it when they did, he would have been dead in 6 months.  My dad showed no symptoms of heart problems.  This was my sign from God letting me know that He was present in my life.  My dad had major heart surgery done a few weeks after and was out of commission for a while but recovered and was back with us in a few short months.  During that time, Glowing Heart went through heavy spiritual battle with war seeming to rage in every direction, whether it was members leaving for a short while due to health issues, miscommunication with Dnows, or equipment malfunctions, we couldn’t catch a break.  This is where I learned a major lesson in my life.  “But He said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is perfected in weakness’…” (2 Corinthians 12:9).  Wow.  That was a wakeup call for me.  I have always been an independent person and one who did not like to show weakness in any way, and here God is saying that in those moments when I am weak, He is made perfect.  It’s because in those moments when I am weak, I am humbling myself and saying to God, “okay God, I can’t do this on my own, I need Your help.”  Those are moments when God wants us to realize that it’s okay if we aren’t strong all the time and that we can’t do it, because He can and He wants to lavish His grace on us during our time of weakness.  And for this reason, “…Therefore, I will most gladly boast all the more about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may reside in me.  So I take pleasure in weaknesses, insults, catastrophes, persecutions, and in pressures, because of Christ.  For when I am weak, then I am strong.” (2 Corinthians 12:9-10).

 

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